I wish I could say that I did slow down after I graduated. Now, four years later, I am saying, "Ok Mama, I'm almost done with college, I am pretty sure I will slow down. For real this time". I have to say that I am used to running around all the time. For my entire duration at UL I have had to learn some major time management skills. There is no way I could have survived if I hadn't acquired that essential skill, but because I did, I have learned how to be a very flexible person.
I am days away from graduating and I am really happy. I totally enjoyed this experience the last four years. If I hadn't been as involved as I was, I probably wouldn't have learned some great things that I did. However, the newest thing that I have been realizing this past school year is something that tends to sneak upon you if you are someone who is constantly on the go. I have a hard time being in the moment. With so many things going on at once, it is very hard to concentrate on the very thing that is currently in front of me. For instance, if I am having lunch with a friend, my mind wanders to the baseball game I need to attend for clinicals later. Or maybe to the project I have due in 4 hours from that. It's as if my mind never stops, even though I am physically still.
Be still. Be still and know. These words have become a big thing to me after watching this video by Blaine Hogan. He addresses the very issue I explained earlier. I even noticed that this problem spilled into my time with God. It is sometimes a challenge to pray and worship Him without thinking about the next thing I must accomplish. I feel as if I am cheating Him of the time He deserves. Be still. Be still and know...be here now.
I am in the midst of making some big decisions concerning my future. Two months ago, if you asked me what I planned to do, I could tell you exactly. Now it is a different story. Huge decisions upon the horizon and it is so hard not to think about it. Just another plate added to everything else in my life currently. More than ever, it has been hard to just be. It feels like productivity isn't happening if I am just still and not actively thinking of what to do or where to be. Something must go on, right? No. Be still.
Being concerned about making the right decision about my future is overwhelming. But I know I have to be still and trust that God is going to speak to me, in the stillness. I know I have to slow down and focus on just one thing at a time. I have to willingly give up the anxiousness, anxiety, and the control of it all and know that He is going to come through. It's funny that I came across this lesson earlier this year not knowing it will be something that would become of great importance. Be still. Be here now.
"Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth"- Psalm 46:10
Check out the link I posted below of the video!
-Christian
